Pax Romana, pax cosmosa

I want cosmos to make peace with me. May be he is at peace, but I’d like to see. My little (?) request is to be rewarded.

Is this in my hand or in his, I do not know but I really would like to enjoy what I am looking for. I want to grin like a Cheshire cat! Like a kid getting her/his lolly.

Why not?

Haven’t I succeeded this ‘more than half of my life’ test??

Please tell me I did :))

When I look forward to something, I would like to be happy the whole journey- from start to finish. I would like to share my happiness, even if it is only with me :p. I want my eyes to sparkle with excitement without having a need to hide it. I want to be full of beans. I want to feel like in seventh heaven!..

Is that too much to ask for?

I want to be free of thoughts; not worrying if something’s gonna go wrong. I do not want to think if something’s gonna come inbetween. I do not want to worry, waiting if that is going to happen or not. I do not want to test. I do not want to hide.

I want simplicity.

I am bored with elaboration, tired of labyrinths.

I can negoatiate

If you help me a little, I can try to change. As if I haven’t experienced all those dissapointments. As if I the wind hasn’t been taken out of my sails. As if I haven’t been let down. As if I haven’t cried.

I will try. I will try my best. Even if this means starting from scratch. Even if it means falling and getting up again.

I think I am ready. I am ready!

Oh, I see. You will help me :))

Hmmm…

Wait and see 😉